So sad

Ok well I have been so busy at work and it is good but in a bad sorta way. Well Tanner is in California golfing with family and enjoying 70+ degree weather. Alex has been hunting and like all his hobbies, it is getting old but whatever. It could be worse. I guess I just don't get excited about hunting so maybe that is why i do not see why someone would hunt for nearly 45 days straight.But oh well...
So something that is on my mind tonight is my non-profit. I have several ideas but my plan is to help people live, a little change from hospice. It is no secret that our economy is in bad shape, but I know of three people that are dying because they could not afford treatment. That is right people who can actually have a treatment options are dying because of insurance, job loss, and to me that is just crazy.
Alex drives me crazy sometimes, but a few weeks ago i realized why i loved him so much.... He knows a women that her husband has cancer and it does not look to good. She was laid off. No insurance and without treatment and being able to afford oncology testing, he is going to die even if there is treatment options. Alex's world after many years has finally collided with mine and I just think it has been bitter sweet. He finally realizes what I go through everyday and the emotions, sadness, and frustrations. He does really well with it because when he talks to me about her, I just start to cry because I see the compassion in his eyes. I am married to a pretty wonderful guy.