My feelings forget english and grammer!!

I have been to another funeral of a friend/RN, who died of acute liver failure. Wow. Kim..What happened? I cried when I knew she was at OHSU trying to get a liver, I remembered she was the 2nd person to know that i was having a baby, the next night I worked with her she brought me a baby gift. If Kim was able to fix it she would. She was fun, sometimes to much fun. She allowed you to be silly, carefree, happy, spontaneous all in the same night. She had an enormous about of energy. WOW!!It is funny how people in the medical field strive to fix others, but don't, cant , wont, take care of themselves.
When I heard that she had died, I was mad, i was mad at her for leaving her two kids behind. How could a mother do that! Those kids really loved her and she was the only mom that i had ever met that never yelled at her kids. People might look down on her for this but her son had 11 years of his life, and her daughter only had 9 years with her. Wow you know looking back if I only had 9-11 years with Tanner, I would probably never get mad at him. Look at me I act like my time is guarantee to be longer then hers, but who is to say, who is to decide that, so once again I am reminded to not get worried about small little things. I am working on my list of what is most important. It is harder then what it seems like. Who are the people that I need to call and tell them Thanks or Love you. Are there things that I wish I would have told someone if they died today. I think I can only learn from mistakes. Learning and then allying them to my everyday life.

Amazing Grace Lyrics
by Englishman John Newton
(1725-1807)

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.



T'was Grace that taught...
my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear...
the hour I first believed.



Through many dangers, toils and snares...
we have already come.
T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far...
and Grace will lead us home.



The Lord has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...
as long as life endures.



When we've been here ten thousand years...
bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise...
then when we've first begun.



"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

Happy 4th!!

Well Debbie picked us up from the airport, and as we drove into the neighborhood Tanner saw the fireworks. So Debbie ran and got the kids, and her fireworks!!! It was a great day, Tanner was so happy to see Spanky, I think that they could have played all night. It was cute. Here are some pics,

Families are like fudge - mostly sweet with a few nuts. ~Author Unknown

SO sad...

My friend and I talk about 5 times a day. There was nothing unusually about the yesterday and until there was the formal text call me please. Wow..what was the drama, kids, work, hubby, girl stuff. Yesterday her Dad had died after a motorcycle accident. Wow, I kept thinking that this just wasn't another Monday. What do you say. I work for hospice I should have something to say, but wow. I am so sad for them. I am sad for her mom because I know I would feel empty if I lost someone so special.
Something that is really cool, Spanky would outside and caught a butterfly. A butterfly is an eternal symbol of life. That just gave me a the chills. Well with out dealing out all their personal business..
Steve was a wonderful man, husband, grandfather, dj, singer, biker, and this list can go on...

I am not good at this...

Well today is fathers day, and it has been pretty mello. Tanner left to k falls because his cousin are going there for the week. My mom is coming up to hang with him. We leave soon for California with the Ebner's! I can not wait for the rest. Hopefully.
So what is new, Tanner is going to kinder this fall. He gets togo to school with his best friend. Even thought spanky is older I am still excited that he gets to be at John Tuck. They cut the school district to 4 days a week next year. It will be interesting to see how it changes. He is getting so big, and his imagination is running wild. He told his preschool teachers that we were having a baby sister. That is so not true, but lord only knows what else he tells them.
Man for me looking for things to say, we have really not had a moment to stop. I am working the story of my life. But this time it is for a good reason, we are going to hawaii in November. I can not wait and it will really be here before we know it. Well I have to run to bend, and...work. SO i will post some pics later..XOXO

Time time time

So I have been going and going and today I hurt my back. My sister and her bf left to go back home to san Francisco. We had the best time. The best was river rafting down the Deschutes river. Greg fell in the water, right in the middle of the class 3. Tanner is not to sure about but I defiantly want to take him again. If u were to ask Tanner what was the best thing, he would say fishing last night. Matt(our friend), Alex, Greg, and Tanner went fishing. I was going to go and pick Tanner up when he was ready but i kept calling and Alex kept saying that he was fine. Tanner stayed out there and fished until after 9pm and all he can talk about is when he gets togo again. So now we are going to Drew's high school graduation this weekend. That is the highlight of last week.

Make a Smilebox scrap pages

Wow....

Ok the month is flying by...We have been on the move. We got new carpet, because we needed it. I think that Alex is getting over finally. Alex went riding on Saturday, and his hands are the worst they have ever been. I feel sorry for him, cause it is mulitple blisters. So anyways...
Tanner is getting really into music. Gigi bought him an ipod, and he loves listening to HIS music on it all the time. But now he is starting to sing along with the songs, and he loves to dance.
Today is Grandpa's birthday, but tomorrow Tanner is giving him a party. We do not know if Grandma will get an invitation because she ate some chocolate that Tanner was saving for Alex. Tanner is really in to saving things for Dad, because Alex has been really working TONS. I hate to sound ungrateful because there are so many out of work. So pretty much nothing grateful to report. Just life as we know it.