Cassie's crazy world...

CHANGES ARE COMING!!!

2012-01-21T03:53:00.000-08:00

This is the year of change, for myself and my family. 2011 was filled with sadness, disapointment and hurt. I am working on myself and surrounding myself with simple folk, who do not take energy or work.

Poor Gunner...

2011-01-09T16:25:00.000-08:00

Gunner keeps us busy but sometimes it is hard to balance him and Tanner. This is what Gunner has been up too. He has NO desire to be on his tummy. NONE!! He flips him self over right on his back. However is trying to walk, and he wants to stand ALL the time.

Skiing with DaD

2011-01-09T15:28:00.000-08:00

So Alex went snowboarding with some friends the other night, and felt so bad, he took Tanner up the next day. Tanner has decided it is time to move on to the blue. So next time is going to be interesting. But I forced Alex to take my camera and here you go...

Tanner's Spelling B

2011-01-09T15:08:00.000-08:00

So my pictures are on the other camera, HOWEVER, I want to share that Tanner is the going to the Bend Regional Spelling B, in a few weeks. Here is a recap of the rules:
a)there are 4 kids on the stage, the first one who spells a word wrong goes off the stage.
b)the 2nd one to spell their word wrong goes off stage.
c)now the last 2 kids, stay on stage, and when one of them spells a word incorrectly they wait for the opponent to spell 2 words correctly.
d)the winner must spell 2 words correctly to be declared the winner.

So Tanner and his female classmate went on with about 5 words each, spelling the 2nd word wrong, it was Tanners turn and when they said "money" I know it was great. Then his second word was "north" and he spit it right out. He was pretty excited and we were all very excited to be there.

Better Blogger!!

2011-01-01T22:41:00.000-08:00

So I was about to get in bed and then I thought it has only been one day and i cant fall behind.I am going to attempt to blog at least everyother day. This will force me to empty off my camera more then once a year! It is January 1st and Tanner is having his final sleepover with his cousin Miles. They are sooo tired and are laying right next to each other on the couch. They are going to be like my cousin Ty and I!!! 2cute...So yesterday was a LONG day, we went skiing and then had our friends over for a little celebration. It was a perfect LONG day. Tanner and Miles went to ski school and by lunch time Tanner thought he was to good to finish his lessons. Thank heavens Miles was there, and I told him he had to finish if he ever wanted to snowboard.

Fall brings Change...

2010-10-19T14:03:00.000-07:00

I am so bad about this blog, I have my blog and then my family blog and this blog doesn't get enough TLC. So Fall is here, Tanner is doing soccer, school, and BMX. The season is almost over, but he is excited about it, so I think i know what Santa is bringing to him. He is starting to like CCS a little more, but I am confident I made the right choice about this school. It has really been a blessing to my soul in many ways.Gunner is growing so fast. He loves to talk, and I think his brother is his favorite person in the whole world. Gunner gets so excited to see Tanner, I will load the video.
My mom was here for a few days helping with the boys and the house. We had a small fire, but did alot of damage so living in the bedrooms with the 2 kids and dogs was not the best living conditions, but we did it. What doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger.It is always hard when she leaves...Especially cause PA was here for a few days too. They got to see Tanner race, his game, and then took him and little pal to Family fun center...They did allot in such a short time.
We took them to the pumpkin patch, Tanner loved it, cause he soccer friends were there, Gunner slept for most of the time, which was fine cause it was so cold. The weather changing isn't the best since Gunner like to sit outside from about 7 to 8:30...

Tanners 1st Grade

2010-09-02T16:30:00.000-07:00

Wow, well my baby is starting 1st grade. We went today to his class room!! Here are some pics...

July Is Gone!!!

2010-08-07T17:46:00.000-07:00

Wow,Gunner is almost 2 months old and I just dont know where the summer has gone. Let me back track just about some highlights of the summer. I will have to post pics later.
June 11th- Gunner was born and my mom spent almost 3 weeks with us. She took Tanner and did fun things. Alex took the whole week off when Gunner was born so that was extra nice.
July 4th- Alex's brother was married in Salem, so Gunner took his first mini vaca. That was interesting, we had to use my Grandmas huge car because I had to pack so much, taking the baby. We hung out at the farm for the weekend. Tanner and Alex would move there if they got the green light. That is a boys heaven! We did fireworks with the Dicksons and Alex's Family.
July 7th- Alex's parents came to Bend for a week with Miles and Maisy. Gosh I wish they lived closer, it is very cool to see Tanner with cousins. Jerry took the kids on all sorts of adventures.
July 12th- Tanner went to Klamath Falls to see Grandma and Gramps, and the House children.
July 17th- Uncle Bry and his WHOLE family came and stayed at Eagle Crest, which is 10 minutes from my house. That was really great cause again Tanner got to hang with Ethan, Anverry, and Gunner has a cousin named Gage, that he can raise cane with. Auntie, Mike, Tyler and Drew came over for the weekend and we all celebrated a birthday and just some great Family time. This was a nice change from our Christmas ritual, and even though a few were missing, there were still wonderful memories made. I can't wait until next year.
July 30th-Should be a national holiday being it is my friend Debbie's birthday. Grandma came up on the 29th, we went to the fair with Tanner and the Dickson's. Then we went to Debbie's birthday party, headed to the lake Saturday. Tanner left Sunday the 1st for Gigi and Pa's.
Almost done, Gunner and I had appointments over the next few day and here were are on August 8th, Gunner, Grams and I are headed to SF to see all the family there. My dad and sister have not seen Gunner since he was a week old. I am going to take Tanner school shopping, in the city!!!

I have to start some place....

2010-07-11T22:07:00.000-07:00

So it has been forever since I blogged, so I am just going to post and go with it. We had our baby June 11th, been super busy since then. He is growing so fast and there is just so much to share but lets just introduce him...
GUNNER

Quick update...

2010-04-24T08:18:00.000-07:00

So things have been crazy...but here is the best... I was getting out of the car and Tanner was like "Mom have you ever died, and then come back to life." Alex loved it...
The baby is growing great, of course his head is measuring 2 weeks bigger then my due date. I had the best baby shower given by the most wonderful friends...I am really bummed about missing my sister's graduation but she gets it...I am so proud of her...
Well that is all for NOW....

love this...best forward in a while!!

2010-03-01T18:59:00.000-08:00

I went to the doctor for my yearly physical.
The nurse started with certain basics.
"How much do you weigh?" she asked.
"135," I said.
The nurse put me on the scale.
It turns out my weight is 180.
The nurse asked, "Your height?"
"5 foot 4," I said.
The nurse checked and saw that I only measure 5' 2"
She then took my blood pressure and told me that it is very high.
"Of course it's high!" I screamed, 'When I came in here I
Was tall and slender! Now I'm short and fat!"
She put me on Prozac.
What a bitch

Tooth

2010-02-07T19:02:00.000-08:00

Well we are eating more apples with another tooth, that could come tonight but I will try to wait for alex, but I dont know if he is going to make it. The 1st tooth came out last night. I put the string around it, but Debbie had to pull it. He did so much better then I thought he would. Alex would have cried, but he was working late.

Crazy Days

2010-02-02T10:11:00.000-08:00

Well i have a break at work, just finished charting, but thought I would post. I am still getting sick, I have about 2-5 days a week that I am just sick. but that is still better then my 24 hour, 7 day a week things....
So tanners best quotes...
"Mom, I am going to be a cowboy. Cowboys are rich. You know Pa and Grandpa were cowboys when they were younger." OMG i was speechless.
"Mom I am sure happy that we are going to save money by having a boy. Now I can just give this baby my old toys and you only have to buy me new ones."

SO over the weekend Tanner had a sleepover. he had so much fun and wants to know how many more days til he can have another. I informed him that we do not do sleepovers on school nights. Then he informes me I let grandma stay over on school nights..He is so like his dad sometimes.
He is so growing cause he is back to sleeping 12 hours and eating like he has never before. He even won Alex at dinner last night. (we race at dinner because tanner eats soooooo slow. tanner never wins)That never happens. Alex and I didn't know what to do with our child in bed at 7pm. I worked on Tanners Kinder book, and tonight we are making V-day gifts. I love V-day, only 2 weeks away...

My smart baby...

2010-01-22T12:53:00.000-08:00

Oh wow so I was never going to be one of those mom who said their child was the smartest. BUT...we have got Tanner's report card, (just one), and he did so freaking good. I am so proud of my little man. Even though when the teacher tells me how he acts in class, it is kinda like are we talking about the same kid...JK
So this preg. has been so different I am like freaking about how different this baby is going to be. I mean I did a ton of traveling with me and Tanner, and Tanner still is the best to travel with, but as I am making travel plans for me, tanner, and the baby, I am like Sh*t. What if this baby isn't good a traveling. Tanner already informed me we will not fly if the baby screams the whole time. (Hawaii flight). Then I informed him, we will not drive if this baby screams. So Tanner and I s travel plans might be coming to a halt. SO we are taking 2-4 little trips b4 the baby gets here. Portland and Seattle are the most important for Tanner, and Alex. Alex is coming with us on those but I don't think he is going to come to Salinas with us.
Well Tanner and I are home for lunch but I thought something is better then nothing,....
PS. Yes I am still freakin sick!!!
pps. I am not proofing this...

The big day

2010-01-16T10:57:00.000-08:00

Well it was with out a doubt a boy. I am so excited for many reasons, and anyone close to me knows that I was wanting a boy. So we are off to do a little shoppin and Tanner and I are going on a date. Pray I dont get sick today....

2010-01-13T19:27:00.000-08:00

Well not much has changed, tomarra we find out the sex of this baby, and I dont feel that excitment as I did with Tanner. I know why...I have had my head in the tb all evening...18 weeks and still sick, I have lost 16lbs, and I have meds, but they dont always work. Tonight I think I have come to a discovry that some pills I take might just be doing it. I have been keeping a log, and I think that I might have it down. So I helped in Tanners class, (do it Wed), it was crazy, I would die if I was a teacher. Parents remember you have NO idea what your kid says in the classroom!!! Well Tanner and I have a poker date, tt4n...

Might Just Slip....

2009-11-18T18:06:00.000-08:00

So i have not been bloggin because I have been sick and then I was scard that i might slip. Yes, we have big news, we are having another baby. We are all so excited but Tanner is so excited and he has the names picked out. They are really cute names. But anyways, we went to Maui, for nine days and had a ball. Tanner loves Hawaii, here are some pics, and I am going to try to take my new meds....

Debbie's 30th.

2009-09-06T23:10:00.000-07:00

Well after a month, we had one last party for Debbie at her Mom's. I love it there, (along with everyone) because it is so peace full and the kids can play in the wild lands.. But here are some pics of her FINAL 30th party. So the story with the pig is Kona forgot candles. So we drive to the little store, and decide it would be funny to go borrow a pig from this pig farmer. So Debbie was so freaked out, it was worth it. She will never for get that gift. Also they did gold fish races and it was hard to tell he liked it more the adults or the kids.

Wow it has been a month...

2009-09-06T22:45:00.000-07:00

These are just of few Pics of our summer. There are over a thousand but July was a biggy.. Debbie turned 30 for a entire month. One day we went to the lake while Kona was working and it was the best day. Very relaxing...Then we headed to Portland for the weekend, everyone got clothes for the wedding, (including my kick a@@ dress), except Alex, Kona and Kirk. The day kona gets his outfit will be a groundbreaking as the Great Wall. Anyway Portland was great, and we got to see Uncle Tyler, so that is always plus.

Well summer is almost over, and Tanner had played with spanky ALL day, it was so cute, they had a great day. We have had a relaxing weekend, Alex has been hunting and so Tanner and I have been hanging out. Tanner got a new Bike and so he has been riding for almost 2 daYs straight. I have worked worked and worked some more. My little cam is MIA and I am starting to go nuts. I love the big one but it just isnt my small one. And I have the best shots of Tanner and my family from our recent trip to California. Well I will blog each event and more pics soon..But at least this is a start...

My feelings forget english and grammer!!

2009-08-03T15:28:00.000-07:00

I have been to another funeral of a friend/RN, who died of acute liver failure. Wow. Kim..What happened? I cried when I knew she was at OHSU trying to get a liver, I remembered she was the 2nd person to know that i was having a baby, the next night I worked with her she brought me a baby gift. If Kim was able to fix it she would. She was fun, sometimes to much fun. She allowed you to be silly, carefree, happy, spontaneous all in the same night. She had an enormous about of energy. WOW!!It is funny how people in the medical field strive to fix others, but don't, cant , wont, take care of themselves.
When I heard that she had died, I was mad, i was mad at her for leaving her two kids behind. How could a mother do that! Those kids really loved her and she was the only mom that i had ever met that never yelled at her kids. People might look down on her for this but her son had 11 years of his life, and her daughter only had 9 years with her. Wow you know looking back if I only had 9-11 years with Tanner, I would probably never get mad at him. Look at me I act like my time is guarantee to be longer then hers, but who is to say, who is to decide that, so once again I am reminded to not get worried about small little things. I am working on my list of what is most important. It is harder then what it seems like. Who are the people that I need to call and tell them Thanks or Love you. Are there things that I wish I would have told someone if they died today. I think I can only learn from mistakes. Learning and then allying them to my everyday life.

Amazing Grace Lyrics
by Englishman John Newton
(1725-1807)

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

T'was Grace that taught...
my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear...
the hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares...
we have already come.
T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far...
and Grace will lead us home.

The Lord has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...
as long as life endures.

When we've been here ten thousand years...
bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise...
then when we've first begun.

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

Happy 4th!!

2009-07-07T08:34:00.000-07:00

Well Debbie picked us up from the airport, and as we drove into the neighborhood Tanner saw the fireworks. So Debbie ran and got the kids, and her fireworks!!! It was a great day, Tanner was so happy to see Spanky, I think that they could have played all night. It was cute. Here are some pics,

2009-07-05T21:09:00.000-07:00

Families are like fudge - mostly sweet with a few nuts. ~Author Unknown

SO sad...

2009-06-23T13:52:00.000-07:00

My friend and I talk about 5 times a day. There was nothing unusually about the yesterday and until there was the formal text call me please. Wow..what was the drama, kids, work, hubby, girl stuff. Yesterday her Dad had died after a motorcycle accident. Wow, I kept thinking that this just wasn't another Monday. What do you say. I work for hospice I should have something to say, but wow. I am so sad for them. I am sad for her mom because I know I would feel empty if I lost someone so special.
Something that is really cool, Spanky would outside and caught a butterfly. A butterfly is an eternal symbol of life. That just gave me a the chills. Well with out dealing out all their personal business..
Steve was a wonderful man, husband, grandfather, dj, singer, biker, and this list can go on...

I am not good at this...

2009-06-21T18:23:00.000-07:00

Well today is fathers day, and it has been pretty mello. Tanner left to k falls because his cousin are going there for the week. My mom is coming up to hang with him. We leave soon for California with the Ebner's! I can not wait for the rest. Hopefully.
So what is new, Tanner is going to kinder this fall. He gets togo to school with his best friend. Even thought spanky is older I am still excited that he gets to be at John Tuck. They cut the school district to 4 days a week next year. It will be interesting to see how it changes. He is getting so big, and his imagination is running wild. He told his preschool teachers that we were having a baby sister. That is so not true, but lord only knows what else he tells them.
Man for me looking for things to say, we have really not had a moment to stop. I am working the story of my life. But this time it is for a good reason, we are going to hawaii in November. I can not wait and it will really be here before we know it. Well I have to run to bend, and...work. SO i will post some pics later..XOXO

Time time time

2009-06-04T17:53:00.001-07:00

So I have been going and going and today I hurt my back. My sister and her bf left to go back home to san Francisco. We had the best time. The best was river rafting down the Deschutes river. Greg fell in the water, right in the middle of the class 3. Tanner is not to sure about but I defiantly want to take him again. If u were to ask Tanner what was the best thing, he would say fishing last night. Matt(our friend), Alex, Greg, and Tanner went fishing. I was going to go and pick Tanner up when he was ready but i kept calling and Alex kept saying that he was fine. Tanner stayed out there and fished until after 9pm and all he can talk about is when he gets togo again. So now we are going to Drew's high school graduation this weekend. That is the highlight of last week.

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Wow....

2009-05-19T17:17:00.000-07:00

Ok the month is flying by...We have been on the move. We got new carpet, because we needed it. I think that Alex is getting over finally. Alex went riding on Saturday, and his hands are the worst they have ever been. I feel sorry for him, cause it is mulitple blisters. So anyways...
Tanner is getting really into music. Gigi bought him an ipod, and he loves listening to HIS music on it all the time. But now he is starting to sing along with the songs, and he loves to dance.
Today is Grandpa's birthday, but tomorrow Tanner is giving him a party. We do not know if Grandma will get an invitation because she ate some chocolate that Tanner was saving for Alex. Tanner is really in to saving things for Dad, because Alex has been really working TONS. I hate to sound ungrateful because there are so many out of work. So pretty much nothing grateful to report. Just life as we know it.

Happy Mothers Day!

2009-05-10T21:35:00.003-07:00

Ok so 2nd time is a charm. Mothers day is over, and wow. Since Tanner's party, and soccer games, and working, we/I decided we were getting new carpet in the whole house. Tanner went to grandma's and Alex and I moved 7 years of life and junk out of the house and back in a less then 2 weeks. Let me tell you, it took one day for them to do all the work. Getting the stuff out was great, but putting it back took forever because we went through it all. Alex was such a trooper and he did so well because he and now Tanner do not like change. I love the way we have it all set up. Now all the fun is over, it had to happen, and we will continue working because we have 4 big trips planned between now and November.
Tanner is changing every day. He is giving me a complex because he keeps telling me his back hurts. So we will be going to the MD. I for some reason do not mess around when it comes to my kid. It is something about the job, life, and just me. ok well before something else happens I will post this and see where I am at...

Happy Mothers Day!

2009-05-10T21:35:00.001-07:00

Life in the Real World.

2009-04-30T20:46:00.000-07:00

Our Weekend...

2009-04-20T21:32:00.000-07:00

We made a quick trip to Seattle to watch the Supercross. We did this last year and loved it. This year the Dickson's went with us, we had a blast, here is a quick idea of some of the things we did...i will post about with some more detail tomorrow...
I love this picture. This is just a hair to how cool this show really is..
Tanner and his mommy
Kona, Alex, and Tanner at Supercross.

Tanner and his best buddies in the whole world.
There are so many more pictures that are cool but I just had to blog tonight..Tahtah for now..love me

2009-04-14T23:27:00.001-07:00

Our birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.
- Jean Paul Richter

In one hour my baby boy will be FIVE! Holy cow, how fast time pasts. I love this picture. Uncle Mike made the best cake yet!!! Everyone says that he is in the wrong profession. But what is so cool about this cake is Tanner was just amazed at this cake. He was so happy and his face was priceless when he saw it. Tanner was so excited he just sat and looked at it for a few moment. At the party he asked and he could have Yoda's head. So that is what he got. He only ate about half of it and we brought the rest home. Thanks Uncle Mike. Well Tanner and I are watching the Disney channel because he took at 2.5 hour nap at 6:00 pm. Let just say I worked 15 hours today and Gigi and Alex are in bed. Wow, what is wrong with this pic. I might be tired but spending this time with him is priceless.

Busy busy busy!!!!

2009-04-12T08:45:00.001-07:00

Tanner is my tax baby. You really don't forget his birthday because the government starts sending out reminders in January. This year we had his birthday the weekend of Easter because next weekend we are going to the Supercross in Seattle. We did it last year and he loves it. He is so excited to go.
So yesterday we went to his soccer game and that was so cute as always. Then we went to pappy's pizza for a little birthday celebration. But that was not the conclusion to this birthday celebration, we then went to local monster trucks.

1st Game!!!

2009-04-05T09:04:00.000-07:00

Yesturday was Tanners first soccer game. It was so cute. He was so happy. Here is a slideshow of the game....

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Whats New!!!

2009-03-31T20:02:00.000-07:00

Oh tonight Tanner started soccer,it was so cute.There is six kids on the team,they have their first game on Saturday. I will post pictures.
As most of you know Alex and I had to take a little trip to tend to some family business. We ended up in Santa Barbara, and oh it was so pretty. I missed Tanner so much, I felt so bad! But I ate fresh fish, went to the zoo, and was able to go to State street with my favorite sister in law!! But I got to see his family, which was nice to see the ones that are nice to me and love Tanner. Then the highlight was after 4 days I got to Maisy,and I know she remembered me. It was so cute.
Oh, and I saw Betty! I love Betty! She is my sister n laws mom and I fell in love with her last year when she went on an Ebner vacation with us. She is so much like my own family, I had to take the chance to see her cause what are the odds of my favorite person from Boston, being in Santa Maria(karen you know what I mean). Thank you everyone for all the nice emails,while I was gone. It was very nice!!!!
On our long drive home my parents who live 2 hours north of Alex's met us for Breakfast. That was so nice of them, and it was nice to see them. It made Alex and I realize that we really need togo home more. We are going to plan on at least once a year going to both out home towns,cause we really miss our family. It was nice to see Alex all mushy.
Then we faced the next ten hours on the road. I can complain, i haven't not traveled without Tanner, so removed the quad video, and replaced it with the unlimited gift. Gosh, that is a good movie. Alex and Aaron drove the whole way because I scare Aaron and lisa to death. I really have no idea WHY!? I will talk about how life changing it was,along with my trip on my next blog.

What a night....

2009-03-14T21:06:00.000-07:00

Well I will post pictures, but they are not the best. Tonight was a northwest arena cross and Debbie and I think that it was one of the best races. So Ethan who is 16ish a needs to race with the pros, totally crashed so ALL the riders were held up. Did I say all I mean all but one and there was mr. 420. he side passed them all and was in first place. If things were different we would have jumped up and down cause this was by far mr. 420 BEST race ever. But unfortunately life is not that simple, so I was freaking out. Dennis was the first to get out, so it was mr. 420 and dennis. In the middle of the 3rd lap, dennis finally passed him and the final results 1st:Dennis 2nd:Mr.420 3rd:Ethan 4th:Alex. I was so happy!!!

Miles and Tanner!!!!

2009-03-12T23:36:00.000-07:00

Ok well Miles was here from California for almost 15 days. Tanner and him had a ball. They acted more like brothers, then cousins. It was really cute, but most of the time really cute. Here our some pictures.

Well in bed alone...

2009-03-12T23:12:00.000-07:00

OK so i have been a bad blogger but life has been crazy and there doesn't seem to be an end in site. We were with family for almost 15 days and when they left, i thought it might slow down but it has only gotten worse. Alex is sick, so I am on the verge of preparing funeral arrangements. He just got mad cause I got on the computer but I can sleep. I have a friend that is dying, and it is just a little harder when you go through hospice with someone special rather then a patient. It has been a little different, and emotions are running high. I wish that Alex understood I wasn't mad at him, I am just sad about her. Anyways, she is going fast and tomorrow is Friday, I cant wait. I am going to do my stuff this weekend, and people can deal with it.
Well when I say my stuff, did I forget to mention that I am helping my friend plan her wedding, this is not just any wedding this is a wedding in Maui. Yeah so i am working on a destination and did i forget to mention that the groom is a local. So there is a difference in style, between the bride and the groom ideas of how they want this 2nd wedding.

My thoughts...By Mark Twian..

2009-03-07T22:02:00.001-08:00

Get your facts first, then you can distort them as you please.

My thoughts...By Mark Twian..

2009-03-07T22:02:00.000-08:00

Get your facts first, then you can distort them as you please.

Ok this is going to happy..

2009-03-07T21:25:00.000-08:00

OK i have been trying to blog all week but whenever Ms. Maisy sees me she come over because she knows that she can get on Tia Cici's computer. Tia Cici is what Miles and Maisy are going to call me because I think Maisy will be able to say by June. But Miles and Sam sam, have been here since Feb 26th, and we have been going ever since. Tanner and I have been in bend everyday, and Tanner and Miles act like brothers. It is really cute. Maisy is about the sweetest thing in the whole world. I gave her, her first drink of pepsi, and well pretty much let her so whatever she wonts. I will post highlights and then do some more detail...

Some of my favorite quotes..

2009-02-07T18:41:00.000-08:00

Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts. Arnold Bennet

Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe. Saint Augustine

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. Buddha

I like this alot..

2009-02-07T13:13:00.001-08:00

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

I like this alot..

2009-02-07T13:13:00.000-08:00

So sad

2009-02-02T19:43:00.000-08:00

Ok well I have been so busy at work and it is good but in a bad sorta way. Well Tanner is in California golfing with family and enjoying 70+ degree weather. Alex has been hunting and like all his hobbies, it is getting old but whatever. It could be worse. I guess I just don't get excited about hunting so maybe that is why i do not see why someone would hunt for nearly 45 days straight.But oh well...
So something that is on my mind tonight is my non-profit. I have several ideas but my plan is to help people live, a little change from hospice. It is no secret that our economy is in bad shape, but I know of three people that are dying because they could not afford treatment. That is right people who can actually have a treatment options are dying because of insurance, job loss, and to me that is just crazy.
Alex drives me crazy sometimes, but a few weeks ago i realized why i loved him so much.... He knows a women that her husband has cancer and it does not look to good. She was laid off. No insurance and without treatment and being able to afford oncology testing, he is going to die even if there is treatment options. Alex's world after many years has finally collided with mine and I just think it has been bitter sweet. He finally realizes what I go through everyday and the emotions, sadness, and frustrations. He does really well with it because when he talks to me about her, I just start to cry because I see the compassion in his eyes. I am married to a pretty wonderful guy.

The Present.

2009-01-14T21:51:00.000-08:00

Well it seems like I have been to alot of funerals lately, and yes i work for hospice but it sucks. Today again I was reminded of what happens to an only child who has lost both parents and it make me long for another child. My husband is not ready and will he ever be, who knows. There is just so many personal issues with his own childhood, I can say that we will have another one. I know that I love him and I am hoping that over time he can work on this, because he is the greatest father in the whole world. Tanner is so lucky!!! I mean if he sucked at being a dad would i really want more kids with him. Well enough of that for now, I just needed to get this off my chest.
What has happened latly, well i worked late last week and grandma had a small fire in the kitchen. All that i have to say is thank god alex was home. Needless to say Tanner knows how to call 911 and my cell number just in case. Tanner made sure that he told Pa and Grandpa all about it, these are the two people who grandma really wouldnt want to know!! Grandma spent the week with us because grandpa was golfing in california. Tanner loves her so much!!! Alex and I went to our company joining party om Friday night, which was fun but a company party.
Alex is continuling to hunt for coyotes, and is getting closer but nothing yet. He takes tanner target shooting, but i have the best hunting story. Tanner told alex"Dad i want to go hunting with you" So they are off and alex is explaing that when the get out there they need to be quite and be still under the tree. SO they turn the truck off and get out of the car and Tanner yells "Dad, just tell me when it is time to whisper"..so they are here under the tree and Tanner uses the caller for a few times, and gives it to alex. Alex is calling and turns around and Tanner is building a dirt bike jump!!! Needless to say they didnt get a coyotee but that is something to be remembered.

I love Lucy!!!.

2009-01-06T19:15:00.001-08:00

Well after 102 years, my very dear friend Lucy died and it has been hard for me to pull it together. But I hurry home every night because Tanner is so in to working out me. Alex got me an Elliptical for xmas, Oh and I got the Wii Fit. I love them so much. My scale on the Wii says I have not lost any weight but the bathroom scale say different. It was not my new years resolution to lose weight but it started after xmas when we decided we are going to Hawaii in November.
Well it is short tonight because the BIGGEST LOSER is on tonight!!!

Date Night!!!

2009-01-04T00:16:00.000-08:00

Tonight was date night!!! And not just Alex and I went on a date, but Tanner had a date with us. It was so cute cause he kept calling it a date. We went to the movies and saw bed time stories(it was cute), and then went to a pizza place. They bring the pizza crust to the table and let the kids put the sauce and the toppings on themselves. Tanner was in heaven. So over all we had a good night. Hope all is well is everyone else's life. Much love for now...

Being greatful for another day!!

2009-01-02T22:10:00.000-08:00

Well this am started out with a my my very nice friend Jodi calling to tell me that the high way to Bend was closed because there was a crash. I would almost bet my life that it was a pick up truck. Sure enough on the way to work I hears that there were 3 picks involved. You know all day I never thought twice because all the fatalities in Central Oregon have been mainly trucks that are going to fast in bad weather. Then on the way home I heard that it was a sixteen year old girl!!! Wow, this is someones friend, daughter, granddaughter, sister, you get it. But it just made me grateful to come home to Tanner and Alex who had been hunting. We ate a nice family dinner and then watch a movie together. It was nice to have a quite evening. Hope everyone is doing well...Until later..Here is a pic of Tanner and his cousins acting very silly on xmas.

Happy New Years!!

2009-01-01T11:07:00.000-08:00

Well all that I can say is that everyone had a wonderful holiday season. We sure did, I really know that I have the very best of everything in my life.
Alex and I spent alot of time on the road, but it was worth it. Last night Alex told Tanner we were having a party because he finally came home, so he was so jazzed. So he stayed up til 1am (he had a 3 hour nap)!!! So now I am on my blog and he is working out to the chipmunks on his ipod!!! So here are some pics from last night...Happy New Year!!!

On the Road!!!

2008-12-19T23:27:00.001-08:00

I miss Hawaii...This next week is crazy!!! We are going to k-falls to hang with the family this weekend. Then we are coming home to work Mon-Tue, heading back to k-falls wed, coming home on Thur(xmas), Alex and I both work Friday, and then Saturday going back to k-falls to pick up Tanner. The one day the entire school sch. that they are closed and we both have to work. Well I guess writing it out helps me realize that all the driving is worth it because each trip we will see different families. Well off to sleep, Alex says that we are leaving at 4am. PS we are taking the dogs, who saw me back their own suitcase and are wild!! I pray that everyone traveling tomorrow is safe getting to their destination. Did I forget the detail that there is a blizzard warning....

You know you a red neck when...

2008-12-18T20:41:00.000-08:00

My friends back home, would die if they could have seen us last Sunday!!!! Tanner is getting into hunting, and he so he decided that he wanted to go hunting. Grandpa gave Alex a gun for Tanner when he was born! So with that said it was 18* and we went out "shooting." I about froze my ho-ha off, but Tanner and Alex loved it.

Gingerbread Houses

2008-12-18T20:32:00.000-08:00

Hey there well this has been a busy week as we are getting ready to go be with my family!!! Something that Tanner does is make gingerbread houses, but this year we didnt have his christmas party, we did them at home with just the Dickson's. Tanner didnt eat near as much candy as last year, each year he keeps getting better. Here are the pics..

Project in the Work..

2008-12-11T19:21:00.000-08:00

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

NO NO NO

2008-12-11T14:55:00.000-08:00

Well folks there will be no pics with this post!!! We all have the flu. And I mean all..Tanner got sick on Sunday, then Alex and I got sick on Wed, and now grandma is sick on We are talking a WEEK of a nasty bug. I was so sick, i turned the phone off, and just tried to sleep it off. This is the first time i have tempted to make contact with the outside world. Eww.. Enough of that...

So I am so excited cause the weather is saying snow. I can not believe that Redmond will actually get get 3-5 inches of snow, but i will be happy with an inch or two. OK well making this post has made me feel a little productive.

More Hawaii...

2008-12-06T16:20:00.000-08:00

OK so my plan was to blog sooner and post more pictures. Even though Hawaii is over, i miss it each day, and tanner talks about something from the trip daily. We both had so much fun, but we both missed Alex. Next year he is coming with us.

Anyways we sat at the pool, did some shopping, and Tanner's favorite thing was going to the beach. We spent 5 days at the beach and Tanner met a friend from Alaska. His name was Ethan and he was so cute. They made a monster truck track everyday in the sand and rode the waves on the rafts. Tanner did so go swimming in the pool and the ocean. He left his jacket on the whole time just in case.

Every morning on the way to breakfast Tanner wanted to look at the animals that lived at the Hilton. I mean these animals were not lock to anything they would just walk around next to you.Well we are off to an xmas party. Happy Holiday!!!

Where ARE you??

2008-11-23T22:55:00.001-08:00

WOW- Time has gone and here I am listening to the ocean in Hawaii. Tanner is being a champ! Him and his Auntie are up every morning at 5:30 am and then he has been in bed by about 9ish. He is sleeping, Tana is on her iphone, Mom is going to bed. So here I am.. Tanner has been swimming and to the beach everyday. That is all that he wants to do when he is not in the room. Tanner loves our room. He would spend all day here on our balcony, playing with toys and feeding the birds.

The pictures are our view, our private pool, and the room. P.S. The fruit that is on the stand was sooo good, and when Tana and my Mom arrived later that night, Tana was so mad about the fruit. Just something that will make you smile.

Ready to Snorkel or Not??

2008-11-03T19:51:00.000-08:00

Well even if you cant see his face, Tanner has had his snorkel set on almost all day and he wants to try it at the bath tub so that he is prepared when he is in the ocean. Well he came home from swimming lessens and he has decided that he is not going to swim in the ocean, he will just swim in the pool. Oh everyday is something new with him!!! He swims so good. I put him in private lessons and he can almost swim half the pool. It makes me a little nervous when he is in the 14ft section but he is always so happy when he is in the deep in. I think that is to deep for my baby!!

I am so MAD!!

2008-11-03T19:43:00.000-08:00

So last night was army wives (my hour of week that I must have) and I am telling you I love the show so much I really hope that Claudia Joy and her husband don't leave because the man that is mean to Joan and his wife are not characters that are likable. I love army wife and I just do want it to turn into Housewives. Well just needed to vent .

Tanner and ME!!!!

2008-11-02T17:17:00.000-08:00

I just love this pic. It is Sunday and I was up early taking my mom to the airport. I haven't been so sad to see her go since she left me right after I had Tanner. Tanner wanted a day off, and that sounded great so I got caught up on work watched some movies but I decided I was the only one in the world who had not seen Sex in the City. Wow, it is what I needed. I decided that tomorrow is a new week, today is a new day, and I am taking control of me life. I have the most wonderful son ever and so many people that care about me, why settle for people who are as# holes. I think that there becomes a point when you have had enough. How time has changed over the past year. I just feel like I get it and for the first time I know that no matter what happens Tanner and I will always be great, and maybe for others, maybe they can ask their mom.

My Racer...

2008-11-01T22:56:00.001-07:00

Well my baby has decided that he is going to race just like his dad. Well this was alot to take in because Alex has a top of the line life insurance policy, and I think my heart ages a little more after each race. Enough about him. Tanner has had a Quad for almost a year but he just decided that it was time to Race. Not just ride alone which he was not even doing he is planning on racing. So he did it first a about a month ago and he did so go. He was not crazy, very cautious, and just so proud that he was riding on the same track that dad was. Since the race he rides every night (which will change because they say it will snow) but now is practicing tricks. If I can just get him and alex raised I think that I will be ok but I am not fearing the idea that another child might mean another ebner boy. I just do know if I can do that.

My Vampire!!

2008-11-01T22:56:00.000-07:00

Well it was almost 5 pm and I asked Tanner if I should paint his face??? He said "NO Mom, I am wearing my mask" (our friend Debbie us). So there it was he became the rock and that was done. He will kill me one day for letting him wear it but we have the video and the real universal studios vampire was not what he wanted. So after he was dressed we went out to our neighborhood and there were hardly any lights on. (I am moving soon) So we went over to Kona and Debbie's neighborhood and went with them. Tanner was so into this year. He was the monster who was running from door to door excitingly awaiting what treat he will get. After about 2 hours he was DONE!! For Oregon it really was a nice night, compared to our usual 45* or lower. On the way home tanner said "Tricker Treating is so much fun, Thanks" Oh my I was holding back the tears. What a great monster I have.

Races

2008-09-15T21:00:00.001-07:00

Races SO another thing that has kept my family busy this summer was racing. Alex has raced almost every weekend, Tanner has quit the trouphy shelve, but in 2 weeks someone new is going to race..Tanner has been prectising every night with his dad and this is all that he talks about, I think that I might need to up the happy pills. SO far our biggest scare was see a cloud of dust and our friend Miley screaming" tanner sloooow down" other then that we are in good shape.

Life

2008-09-08T02:39:00.001-07:00

Well i hit my head on the window things so hard and it woke me from a dead sleep. So with that said I began thinking.... People spend their whole lifes trying to change the world or make an impact. There is something very said about this because their have been 2 people that have impacted my life and they have in fact been in the last leg of their lives. The first was Paul. He died 5 years ago last month. Now i do not remember when all my patients have died but he was special. He waited 12 days for me to get home from Hawaii and bev to get home from one of her trips, and then he died. I remember our last conversation. I remember many details about this man that I only knew as a dying man. Then there is Bea. Bea died just yesterday and she was the 1st field patient that was mine and only mine. She was my patient that was never that sick. There were many patients that came and went in the middle but she was my rock. Working tomorrow it will just not be the same. However I know that there will be many more, but there will never be another bea.
The thing is that these 2 people changed my life and impacted my life and i dont really think that was in their life plan. I know we all have one. There was just something about them that I will always hold close to my heart and they have no idea. I think that what they both tot me is stop trying to change things and just let it happen. The changes will happen because of me, because I am just me!!!

Ash's Wedding

2008-09-05T17:29:00.000-07:00

OK well the summer has been crazy, Alex is racing, we have been going to the lake, hanging out with the friends and Alex and I went to Vegas. Oh yeah and there was the wedding. My cousin Ashlee married Bob. My sister Tana was sick, oh yeah and she was the maid of honor. That is a whole novel in its self, but i stepped in, had way way way to much to drink, and will leave it at that. We were in Sunriver for the weekend, even though it is so close to home, i love that place. Tanner was a flower chucker, and really didn't like walking down. However he loved playing in the pool with his cousins Ethan and Avery. It was a nice weekend.

Copy Cat!!

2008-09-05T16:21:00.000-07:00

Ok so my sister in law does a blog and I love it!! I am a faithful myspace user but due to some complications, i decided that it was getting old and the whole privacy that only myspace members can see your page, was getting old. So here I go. Karen I hope that you don't mind!!